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Monday, November 9, 1998... 8:48 pm. listening to: Buffy! I've been awful. Just awful about this, about everything I should be doing. I hate being the procrastination fiend that I am, but there it is. I turned off my alarm in my sleep today. That's how bad it is. Anyway, how are things? Halloween went okay. It was quiet, at Ray and Liz's party. I mainly talked to Etienne and Gomer, who was there with this girl he's seeing that he met at NERO. Odd where one meets an SO. But who am I to talk? I met Tyler on a MUSH. Speaking of MUSHing, I've been doing a lot of it lately. More than I likely should. To the uninitiated, MUSH stands for Multi-User Shared Hallucination. I play on a few of them, the most usual of them being a Changeling MUSH, where I play a very nasty woman. That's the MUSH I met Tyler on... Speaking of him, I've come to a few realizations about him, one of them being that I really don't want to be with anyone but him. This is deeply frightening, and somewhat...exhilarating. I'm really happy about the whole thing. He's sending off his University applications today. He should be here by September. I never really thought I'd feel this way. I was given some feedback on this little experiment by a friend of mine, Chris (aka Claxtor, Master of Science). He said something about the fact that I alluded to a lot of things, but rarely said anything that was easily interpreted. I figure that it's because I am nervous about people reading it, and what they'll think. I really don't want to hurt or upset anyone. So maybe the plan is to talk less about other people...If I can. I'm trying to strike the balance between too much information and too little, so excuse the next little while. As I said when I started, this is an experiment, so... I'm trying. Really. I saw Sarah A. sing for the first time this weekend. She was in the chorus, but there were notes that I could hear as unmistakably hers. There's a similarity between speaking and singing voices, and Sarah's is rather distinct. Nothing else really exciting to report. Second interview for one job, but not scheduled yet. I'm getting a little worried, but try not to let it get to me... Just keep going, keep dreaming... As soon as I get work, it's back to school. I am going to get my degree. I'm going to do a lot more. Just need a shot at it...